I'm on the fence about blogging these days. Wondering if it's for me any more. Doubting its value and importance.
It doesn't feel right, lately, to talk about, write about, stuff that's happening in my life. Maybe I'm concerned about how I'm portraying my loved ones in my posts. Maybe I'm taking it all too seriously. Maybe it is too serious.
I keep thinking the same thing, though: It doesn't feel right. I don't feel comfortable sharing the way I once did. Not the things that have been happening. And I guess there's little room left for witty observation of the whole thing...
It takes time and focus and energy. And all of that is spent on actually getting through my life. Nothing left for commenting on it.
I don't know. Maybe it will come back to me. Maybe the urge, the desire, the drive will return. And then I'll be moved to post something more relevant.
For now, it just doesn't feel right...
5 comments:
What made you first want to blog? Where did that desire come from? Are you putting too much pressure on yourself to write? We are here for you no matter what decision you make...
By the way, thank you for stopping by my blog today, I left you a comment there.
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I haven't been much of a blog presence lately. I lost a very dear friend recently, following another death by a couple of weeks. I haven't been able to write about that, except on the website my friend's family set up for her. I have had to function in real life, while all th grieving is in the background.
I have found, after a brief break from the blogs, that writing about other things...not the deep stuff...I'm not ready for that...it's too personal for worldwide disperal, anyway...but about little day to day things, fighting a woodchuck in the garden,and poison ivy in the yard, deer ticks and Lymes disease, career and education issues...writing about that stuff somehow helps me gain perspective.
I hope you get what you need, in the hour of your deepest need. You deserve to be happy...this much I have learned.
Trust your feelings, but know that your writings would be missed.
We are a strange little family here, the good, the bad and the ugly. I enjoy the laughter, the smile and the glompes I get of all your days. And it is nice to reazlie you are not alone in your weaknesses and frustrations.
I am sending hugs your way and hope you find what you are seeking.
Blogging's a little hobby I have, and I really enjoy it. I don't think I spend all that much time at it (except when I re-design the freakin' thing). I read a few blogs, I try to post at least a couple of times a week on mine, and I think I keep it in mind in general, looking for topics, pix, etc. I enjoy the connections I make, too. But you're right, there are some pitfalls and downsides and dangers, etc., too. I think at times I've put too much into it and expected too much out of it, but I think I've got that all down pat now. Hopefully?
I don't know why, but I almost feel responsible when one of the NorthForkBloggers feels negative... I probably am. Sorry!
Anon -I think the thing that first made we want to blog was that I thought I'd have a nice creative outlet. And I guess I haven't been feeling terribly creative lately. I think when things aren't going well, and something else is occupying your mind and heart, the creativity can dry up. I also think it will come back.
j-m - I know what you mean about putting things in perspective. Sometimes I need to take my life a little less seriously.
mom of 3- You know, another reason I started writing was bc I liked the feeling of the nfbloggers community. The fact that we all share many of the same experiences is comforting.
Nan- you are NOT responsible. come ON! You're not my mom! But I like that you said it's a hobby for you, and that you enjoy it. That's how I want to look at it, you know? I'm not sure I have too many hobbies.
I think I'm going to blog about ants next...
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